From friend-zoned to a true relationship

I do not know what to do with my life, maybe cause I have not been in love for a very long period of time. This is the time where I stop and stare at walls to figure out whether am I in love or not? Then I realised that I am truly in love with her because of her "awesome" personalities, tender loving, kind and natural person and yeap, indeed I am in love with her even more day by day.

It all started when we were involved in the university orientation programme and we got close during the game sessions and on the third day itself, I actually fetched her back home and we had talks and during the talk I actually got click to her and realised that I actually liked her. I was not sure at first and it felt like I needed more time to know her more.

Well, I actually did planned to go out with her and had lunch and dinner. Not long after that, it felt so much comfortable when we started hanging out together and found each other compatible but at the same time also we have problems with our current studies, life and friends. One thing is, she is originally from Teluk Intan, Perak and she finds herself having problems staying in PJ, Selangor. She got fed up because of the areas in PJ, which is much more complicated compared to her hometown but as for me, I find this place interesting because PJ has a lot of good food and good places to explore and one thing is that I love to travel and I am obviously a food junkie.

On the day where The Mines Shopping Mall had Big Bad wolf, I have actually confessed to her that I like her but she needs time where until the very end of the day, she said yes to me! I got so excited in "me" but I just could not reveal the happiness in me but instead I jumped for joy the moment when she said yes. But at the same time also, I have had prepared if she said NO to me and things would turned out so differently today.

Then, we started to click with each other and so, the journey begins until today where we are still talking to each other and hang out.

Funny thing is, she actually told the truth that she friend-zoned me during the orientation programme but after the orientation programme, she realised there's a little "spark" between us and there it started. Anyhow, I felt glad that I kept the faith and did not question much about why all these things happened and glad that she is still holding on the path she is taking. Thank God.

Driving at ease

Driving was one of my passion and dream when I was small. I have always wanted to drive when I reach at the very beginning of 17 years old because that's the only time where the government "allows" youngsters to start driving at that age. Knowing the fact that only at the age of 17 that I can drive, I have waited patiently until Sijil Peperiksaan Malaysia(SPM) ended and quickly I went and took the test and PASSED! 

Yeap, happily I was, I drove around my area first before I actually go out to the "real world" of driving, which was the highway and main roads. It was a pleasure that actually I can drive all around my place and took my friends to go around places, shopping malls and etc. 

But one thing that came across my mind was, do I really like driving? The answer is, no. To be honest, who likes driving at all time? Exception to Formula 1 drivers when they actually need to practice their skills and perform well on the day of the competitions and so on. Hence, they are kind of like "forced" to drive and perform better than the rest. This is because they are paid quite high to enter competition and win millions.

So, I have also been asking myself whether should I pursue my dream into driving and participating in Formula 1 and winning prizes/cash/be a millionaire through all these driving competition. Obviously not because I believe one day I may get sick of driving and chasing after one another in one track. Plus, it does not really benefit me much because in Malaysia, we cannot really earn so much because not many of us Malaysian got involve in this racing field. Hence, the quality of Malaysian's racing is poor.

So, I gave up on driving formula 1 cars and started to focus on my studies where eventually I managed to get myself into university and pursuing Media Creative, which was the "real thing" that I needed. 

To conclude, I felt glad and at the same time I was happy because of these motivation through my dreams, I managed to find my way out and knowing what to do in life and what to study. I thank God for all the opportunities that I have in pursuing this degree and for my past inspiration that have strengthen me and lead me to who I am today. 

Daily Basis of Life

Eating is one of the most basic thing we do everyday. Most of our energy are wasted everyday hence, we must eat consistently and for some, they eat a lot.

Well, as for me, I recently visited this restaurant called myBurgerLab. Why myBurgerlab? One thing I love visiting this place is because of their services especially the front crew. They are very cheerful whenever customers tend to visit the shop and this was one of the reason why I looked up to them and actually went for their job interview.

Even though I successfully went through all the interview and probation but sadly, I couldn’t cope with my studies and family and hence, I gave up immediately after the all the probation. Though with such short probation, I got to know new people and I never forget the experience of learning how to cook and serve people with smiles. It was full of joy working with this kind of people and I am thankful that I am able to be part of the team.

What is so amazing about this restaurant is that it serves good, I mean real good food and juicy and not much add-on unnecessary ingredients. Their food is fresh and clean and it is rated as one of the best burgers in town. There are visitors from other countries and the reason they came all the way from their place is that they have heard of this “havoc” black bun burgers. And their comments are like “Awesome, Well-prepared, Well-done” and etc.

With their joy and fun in doing this work in the kitchen and on-floor, I can see that they are enjoying their work as well as serving other people with the joy on their face. And one thing about us, people, is that we have to be cheerful at all time and not to be depressed about the things we should not. I personally feel that everyone should be happy about the things we do especially when we go out to work next time. Students especially, have to be outgoing because when you go out to the working world, you have to be fun and you have to love doing what you do. I have seen people who are forced to work and earn money and support their family and then end up being depressed about their work and their surroundings.

So, work aside, what I personally feel about food is that we should love them equally as we love ourselves. There are certain cases where people tend to diet and not eating properly because they want to look pretty or good-looking. Well, I think that if we love ourselves, we have to eat good food and live a happy life. At some point we have to pamper ourselves with good food and nice clothes and get wasted. That is what I am still standing, believing that good food satisfy my life.

The season of the Chinese people

There comes again the year of horse and I can see that most Chinese people are not in town during Chinese New Year. What I can see during this festive season is those smiling faces when they receive red packets where they called it ang pao.

I find it boring especially during this festive season because every year Chinese people celebrate the same thing all over again where they need waste money to buy fireworks, joysticks to pray and give away ang paos. Moreover, there is nothing much I can do during this time because I do not want to feel like wasting money on petrol and money to visit my friend’s place and relative’s house even though it’s a tradition thing that you have to do every year but who says you cannot visit them during other free days like Sunday?

This is the thing about Chinese people every year where you know they have to follow the rules of visiting other people’s house to collect ang paos and send regards to know what or how they are doing in life. Personally, I feel this is not necessary.

It’s fun to get to visit our friend’s place and hang around to play cards and bet our money on it but really? But the truth is everyone does play one or two round of poker and won some cash but come to think of it, we do lose a lot of money if you are too greedy. Another thing is, this habits could pass on to generation and generations and this could lead to a worst outcome, which is borrowing money from loan sharks.

In contrast, there’s always a greener side where we enjoy sitting down together as a family and having dinner, the bondage between family members and friends are important as they are the one we treasure most. Well, I thank God that I am born in Malaysia with so many festive seasons in a year. I could just use this time to get even more rest and not doing any work for a period of time.

Myself towards Gaming

There are some time when I got bored and even before I start my assignment, I tend to play games. A more to strategy kind of gaming such as Starcraft, Defence of the Ancient and many more mainstream games out there. But I question myself can gaming satisfy someone's inner so much until a person forgets the problem they're facing or rather "running away from reality"? Yes it does.

SO, presenting Starcraft 2 *a little bit about it*

The objective of this game is to win over another opponent's team and other players and basically you owning the whole map. I have been playing this game for about 6 years and definitely it has impacted my life and also I followed their characters and storyline for a very long time and I find it even more interesting than any other first person shooter game such as Counter Strike or Grand Theft Auto.

What's so interesting about this game is that it reflects my life. Just like reality, this game does require tons of patience of building tower, attacking enemy's base and quickly building another place and so does running away from heavy war. In contrast, our life is the same, which means sometimes in life we do need time to build ourself and find ourself and the reason we're doing certain things. Besides that, sometimes we do fail ourself but we immediately got back up again. Why? Because we do not easily give up and we want to win the war. The key to winning and chasing our dreams in life is patience, hard work and full concentration.

Games have been and always been a huge part of my life because it calms my mind and soul and even though I lost in certain game matches, I will always think that it is just another mistake that I made and I will work even harder for the next match. Well, it does seems a little bit more like life isn't it? When you fail certain exam papers and you will try even harder to score for the next paper or work even harder in your next semester.

Apart from all these, I will always play with my friends during the weekends and we will spend 3-5 hours playing this game and literally get wasted but yes it was worth my time and never thought that this game would be so addictive to us and eventually we got ourselves hang to it.